DAY 497

Last night was rough. Mrs Iowegian woke me up while I stood in the middle of the bedroom sobbing in my sleep.

I don’t know why I was sobbing, but maybe it is because the tumor on my neck has grown so large that my whole right side of my upper body is in a constant state of pain and though I’ve asked for over a month that it be removed, my request has fallen on the deaf ears of the VA.

God Bless,

R. I.

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Day 490

Spent another 3 days in the hospital. All medical options have been exhausted, so I will be signing up for HOSPICE. At least as a veteran, I can continue with traditional treatments while getting care from Hospice. The rules for the fight have changed, so I either have to adjust, adapt or be overcome and lose.

God bless,

R. I.

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Brain Fodder

Look at any 4 consecutive days in your life.

During that time, how many hours a day are spent concentrating on the materal world (city of man)? This includes eating, sleeping, watching tv, etc.

Multiply that number by 4 to get the percentage of time spent focusing on the city of man.

Subtract that number from 100 and you have the percentage of time focused on the City of God.

Are you investing you time wisely?

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Day 485

I started experiencing scent hallucinations last year that I still experience on occasion (mostly smelling diesel fuel that is not there).

Yesterday, I started experiencing visual hallucinations. So far, all I’ve seen is passing glimpses of a white and black cat, and this morning, a very elderly woman peeking in on me.

Tho’ I know they aren’t real, it still takes me a few minutes to process in my mind and quantify them as hallucinations.

God bless,

R. I.

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481 – migraines x 5 days. Incessant coughing close to a month now.

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Day 471

tired and in pain. Wonder how long I’ll last…

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Diary of a Lung Cancer Patient – Day 469 (12/24/2021)

The final curtain is near. The cancer is multiplying too fast to stop. Next stop for me is Hospice. For those you who have stood by me, thank you.

God Bless,

R. I.

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Diary of a Lung Cancer Patient – Day 461 (12/16/2021)

The muscle spasms have returned, but not as painful as last time.

The sore throat and ear ache have returned, but not as painful as last time.

Today, the mouth sores have returned, but only to the back of the mouth, not the whole mouth.

Tomorrow, I have five appointments at the hospital, all to do with this cancer.

Next Monday, I have 2nd opinions on treatment from the University of Iowa oncologists, so I’ll be heading down Sunday to be rested on Monday.

Moral of the story: Chemo and cancer are not fun, attitude and perseverance are what are needed to keep going and not surrender.

God Bless,

R. I.

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Did I?

Ever since my cancer diagnosis a little over a year ago, I have often wondered “Did I?”

Did I make a worthy difference in others during my life? Or, did I just occupy one of the billions of carbon based life forms wasting energy?

I pray and hope that I did make a positive difference, but the only ones who attest to that would be those changed, not me.

God Bless,

R. I.

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Diary of a Lung Cancer Patient- Day 458 (12/13/2021)

Tomorrow it is chemo day again. Other than 2 trips to the hospital for side effects from the last one, I thought I’d done pretty well sine that day. Until last Thursday.

While showering, the vast majority of the hair on my head fell out. Then yesterday my beard, mustache and body hair all tried to abandon ship.

I figure after tomorrow, I’ll be able make babies jealous of how folically challenged my body will be. Of course the wrinkles will differentiate me from babies. Evidently I’m no longer wash n wear.

God Bless,

R. I.

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